When you give, and give some more, would you still give some more?
I made a review of the past Februarys. From when I started writing on blogs up to now, I have written a lot. One blog has 250+ post and has existed during the Friendster days. Yes, kids, before Facebook there was this site called Friendster. It’s still there but not there anymore. This current one has 125. The former one contains nonsensical stuff (College stuff that never made any sense now), while the other contains more serious stuff or at least majority of the posts are serious.
I checked the past Februaries because I was thinking of reposting some old blog. Perhaps some poem that I have written that could still be relevant to me. Reading through, I found myself chuckling.
A lot has changed yet some principles still stayed the same. Here are some quotes from the past blog posts circa 2009-2011.
Guys and gals alike tend to take it on their own. When our hormones were still raging to discover the world around us, we seem to think that we are up to do adult stuff. But we don’t realize that those adults that we find as models have undergone the process of submitting their lives to God and waiting it out in God’s time (of course those are the ideal adults). So in the end, we tend to rush. We tend to follow our deceptive feelings and juvenile decision making skills that as we grow older we seem to be making the same mistakes over and over again. We need to stop and trust God’s timing for everything.
A Post V-Day Love Story, 2/21/2009
Sure, I know a lot about the ideals, but who doesn’t? So for now, no matter if the world tells me to search and find, I would only wait and work. When the world counters that man must work it out and ask God for assistance, I would be solely dependent on God and let Him work it out for me.
This time I care not for the world. I care for people, yes, but I care for what God wants me to do with the people. I care not for what the world would say, tease or banter at me. I would just laugh because in the end, my Master, the ultimate creator of the universe is there. He has already prepared the arena, and I believe He’ll personally lead us to it.
I believe this is true and the best and only source of learning love in its truest sense is to go back to the source. I believe that the pursuit of love isn’t the pursuit for the hand of that pretty girl with a sweet smile that you often see in church. It’s the pursuit of God.
Is this love that I’m feeling? 2/16/2011
Patience still counts when it comes to love. It does not only pertain to enduring the downsides of your partner, it also means waiting for the right timing and moment to be in a relationship with him or her. The same thing goes with life. Whenever we wanted something, we need to ask and wait patiently, diligently for God’s answer. He always gives an answer right away. Most of the time, His answer is “wait!”
Basically, I still seemed to have stood by the same principles: Waiting for God’s guidance, and while waiting, giving and giving some more. I still seem to put my whole trust in God on this matter. But the question is, what do I give?
Last year at around this time, I’ve been reading Leo Buscaglia’s “Living, Loving and Learning.” Now I find myself reading C.S. Lewis’s “The Four Loves.” Somehow, both books made sense. Again I found myself nodding at each passage. I learned the difference between human love and God’s love. According to C.S. Lewis, “Every human love, at its height, has a tendency to claim for itself a divine authority. Its voice tends to sound as if it were the will of God Himself. It tells us not to count the cost, it demands of us a total commitment, it attempts to override all other claims and insinuates that any action which is sincerely done “for love’s sake” is thereby lawful and meritorious.” I guess it means we should never think of human love as a god.
Whatever that means I still nod to it. It kinda makes sense. Yet I still don’t know what to give? Advice? Time? Gifts? Pleasure?
I still don’t know. Yet basing on the principles from the previous posts, my best guess is to give what God has given me. To share what God has allowed me to experience and to partake what God has provided. Probably giving and giving some more with God would lead you to love more and more.
